Our Soul’s Purposeful Walk into Spiritual Knowing and Wisdom...Walking in Light and Walking in Darkness.
Walking in Light . . .
Walking in light is reflected by my loving and honoring all aspects of my humanity. The beautiful reflection of my own vibration is shown when I walk in my truth, knowing and the offering of my gifts to the world.
I want to be real. When I am in light I want to see what is here. I want to see my life and I want to see myself. The more I can see myself, the more I can relax into my body and hear my own guidance.
I don’t want to hide and protect things. I want to be open and willing to heal my Shadow. Which will help me see and speak truth in a more profound way. This choice to go into my Shadow to heal and integrate what is there... brings clarity, understanding and a deeper connection with myself and others.
Things can be messy but our humanity and authentic selves are worth it. Things can look and feel bad and wrong, but remember that doesn’t mean the sky is falling. I can walk in faith knowing that there really is a purpose to life and learn to live in trust.
When I am willing to be open I want things to be seen for what they are. There is no need to distort... truth is welcome.
Accountability becomes a natural aspect of life because when we are in love and honor of ourselves we want to own our lives.
In the state of wholeness I am willing and open to talk about my accountability. In healthy relationship both parties are accountable.
There is no need for drama when the desire to be real is present. I can see and know my issues, weaknesses, flaws, shadow and dysfunction. And own them.
My openness and willingness to walk through all that is before me is my organic walk into my own healing and transformation. I can then see, feel and own my feelings, thoughts and actions. Allowing my experiences to lead me into a deeper understanding of what my life lessons are trying to teach me.
I don’t feel the need to be perfect or deny my shadow. Instead I want to welcome, love and see all aspects of myself including my Shadow. I can shine brightly. I am alive. My spirit and authentic self leads my life.
The road to healing is our Sacred right of choice… choose to create a new way, choose healing. The door to Sacred choice is always vibrating in the present moment.
Yes to shifting our way of being in the world. Choose to heal and be Real even if this means choosing to change into your Higher Self moment by moment, minute by minute. When we choose this way of being our vibration and frequency become higher, we become lighter and emanate the light that is growing within us.
Walking in Darkness . . .
Walking in darkness is when I am not seeing or owning my Shadow. When I am not aware and in authority of my Shadow, my ego is then leading my life which is a purposeful lesson in contrast. Our experience in contrast is an intentional lesson and the door to our authentic self and Spirit. We each came to have our own unique journey with our own degrees and flavors of contrast in humanity which creates the depth of our wisdom.
The Spiritual Truth is these experiences are meant to be seen, we are meant to walk in awareness. It is our natural state. Understand, at some point our lessons in contrast and Shadow must be honored, loved and respected in order to be healed and transformed.
In darkness I don’t want to see. Neither do I want to hear or know what is happening with me, my life or others. I am afraid of truth. The piercing vibration of truth feels like it will burn through the veil that is hiding my Shadow. I live with the uneasy feeling that at any time aspects of my Shadow may be exposed. I feel vulnerable.
I create drama to… detract from being seen... create distortion… avoid truth. I don’t want to be accountable for my thoughts, feelings and actions. I don’t want to see or own my part, it feels too big, it feels too bad… ultimately irredeemable. So I feel compelled to blame others or deflect.
I shut down conversation or exploration about what my part may be or what I may have said or done. From this place I do not feel the truth that owning and being accountable for myself and my life is where my personal power and alignment reside.
If pushed into seeing things about my part, I then try to control and manage how much can be seen. I do this by forgetting, distorting, projecting, spinning things and blaming. I distort what I’m actually doing by trying to control how things look. For some people this can be a conscious choice, whereas for others it may be unconscious.
I feel like I can’t allow things to be seen for what they are. Feeling vulnerable is not an option, so instead I often blame and project. And being real feels like even less of an option, especially when feelings of annihilation and vulnerability take over.
I shut down or control the perspectives of others. This can be done in various ways by having airtight justifications, making others feel dumb or perhaps wrong and if all else fails I will feel and act victimized when anyone tries to approach an issue with me.
I hide my true motives behind a facade of niceness, compassion and false empathy when I really feel angry, punishing, victimized, retaliatory or martyred. I may even do this out of a sense of righteousness. I’ll be better than the people around me. I’ll take the high ground instead of being real.
I need to see myself as all good, and if any seeming bad actions or traits are pointed out then I become a martyr. I shouldn’t even be here! I’m so terrible! This stops others and shuts them down from going into needed conversation and accountability. This stops the truth from being spoken and seen.
I feel I need to be perfect, so I feel justified in critiquing and evaluating others around me. They should be perfect too. I collapse on what I believe is right and become inflexible and rigid when people try to work with me through problems we are encountering. I am shut off to all the potential solutions.
This is our Souls’ walk... an intentional lesson in perseverance, tenacity, empathy, humility, grace, compassion, expanded sight, deeper understanding for the purposefulness of our humanity and creating the depth of our wisdom.
I am walking in darkness and I cannot see.
I cannot see but I can choose to feel the reality... the potential to wake up vibrating within my soul… I can choose to be accountable and own my life, I can choose to create a new way, a healthier way. I can choose to heal by using the power of the present moment and choosing my healthier new way moment by moment, minute by minute.